I was there, but not present. I was oblivious. Like those vintage photos of Albert Einstein with his crazy hair, where he looks like the absent-minded professor, I was the absentee. I was solving my Pi. And when 3.141592 … is going around in your head, it’s hard to think about anything else. It drives you mad.
Here’s the story. I’m obsessive—spontaneous, and sometimes ready to combust. It’s part of what makes me good at what I do. But it’s a hazard. Because when I am not present, it seems that God isn’t either. I subtly ask God for help, but it’s superficial—I know it, and he certainly does. So, I have to be honest with myself, my friends, my family and with God. I have to be willing to say, “I’m burned out, and I need to refocus on the Infinite God, so that I can be present again.”
I have friends that got burned out and ran. Running is for cowards. We do it because it’s easy, but it’s not the right choice. (Side Note: All you men who are thinking about running from your spouse, kids, work, or education: “Man up and get a spine. Work at being present. It is worth it. I promise.”)
It took me a long time to realize what I am about to say, so please read carefully. Searching for God doesn’t mean going out and finding him, it just means looking around you. Start by simply calling to Christ. And then do everything in your power to be aware of where, when and how he is active in your life. For many, backpacking through Europe opens their eyes. But maybe it isn’t the backpacking trip that did it. Maybe it is just that when we are in a foreign country, we feel so separated and isolated that we have no choice but to be present. What else are we going to do? Finding the Infinite God in everything means being present. It means closing that box of work, anxieties, fears, and whatevers, and opening a new one. And doing so before we enter the next room and begin that next conversation.
I don’t really strike balance; I use a sliding scale. Balance can’t exist completely—it is a false dichotomy. When I find myself leaning too far in one direction, I need to lean the other way. There is no equilibrium. Equilibrium in life is an allusion professed by religions and philosophies that were created with strata in place to keep new converts at a lower level and elders at the top. Equilibrium is an idealism made up by some nut jobs that wanted their followers to believe they were spiritually lower than them; it’s all a power play. Straight up: Equilibrium in life is a bogus philosophy. Leaning on the Holy Spirit as a guide for balance—now that’s something I can buy into, because the Holy Spirit is a constant corrector. Who doesn’t need constant correction?
The Spirit is what made the prophets spiritually present in all situations. They weren’t that way naturally. They too had moments when God showed them that they needed guidance. Classic example: Moses went from self-indulgent prince in Egypt’s royal court, to peasant, to the leader of the largest slave exodus in history (Exodus 1–3). And then he continued to struggle to find balance while leading God’s people through the desert (Exodus 18). Like us, it got him in a lot of trouble (Exodus 17).
So, do you need to work at being present? Do you ever feel like your hair is getting a little crazy like Einstein? (My goatee is starting to look that way, but at least my eyebrows don’t look like Jack Nicholson’s anymore—I got that fixed.) How can we see God everywhere by being present all the time? Drop a comment and tell me know what you think.
- John D. Barry
Article courtesy of John D. Barry, Editor-in-Chief of Bible Study Magazine (published by Logos Bible Software) and author of The Resurrected Servant in Isaiah. Each issue of Bible Study Magazine provides tools and methods for Bible study as well as insights from people like John Piper, Beth Moore, Mark Driscoll, Kay Arthur, Randy Alcorn, John MacArthur, Barry Black, and more. More information is available at www.biblestudymagazine.com. Originally published on John’s blog at www.conversantlife.com/johnbarry. Follow @JohnDBarry on Twitter.